Had pizza for dinner last night after day long knock down drag out argument about silly things signifying nothing with my sweet but pms-ing wife. ate too much. Coffee and yogurt and more coffee.

Had a good attitude when I woke up this morning and now POOF it's gone! :) Coffee, so far. Last night I made frito pie with leftover veggie chili from night before. Tonight roasted dead flesh w mushrooms, rice and broccoli, and salad. Meant to get some beans soaking last night and spaced it. Hard to cook beans with the hard water of west texas, and since we're on the llano estacado our elevation makes water boil at a low temp like it does in Colorado.

Very pretty weather this morning. Had coffee in the backyard. Need to stock up on yogurt.

Had turkey hotdogs w veggie chili and strawberry shortcake. Holiday's are horrible for diet management!

Fasting today. I think at least once a week fasting is going to continue for me-it helps clear my head!

Got back from trip. Ate yogurts, canned beans, and canned cheese ravioli. Mind is fried. 1000 miles in 3 days is too much for my aging self.

Had a time lately! Off now to Austin for history day cos' Kensie one the regional with her paper about Stalin. Ate poorly over the weekend. KInd of dreading this trip because it's going to do damage to my back to drive so much in 3 days. Oh well, what the hell...fasting till evening because road food would make me sleepy and I'm the solo driver. Fire ban in central TX right now so our camp will be unlit(at least not properly!):)

massively hot here and not running a/c. Waking up dehydrated every morning no matter how much I drink. Coffee and yogurt. Annie has several friends over tonight so simple meal needed-maybe grilled cheese and soup, but too hot for soup. Perhaps I'll make black beans.

I feel yucky. I'm going to fast today and see if I can't detox a little. I might fast tomorrow too if I feel I can get some spiritual energy restored thereby-feeling out of control and un-centered. Of course, coffee will continue, I have no desire to torture myself!:)

Long weekend of house projects. Treating T job hunt like I would a sales campaign when I worked. Kind of fun for me but she's getting irritable which increases my urge to eat tremendously! Had a shameful binge on Saturday. Coffee and oatmeal this morning. Planning omelets and fried potatoes with peppers and onion tonight.

Hurt my back this morning doing the daily gardening-watering, etc. and wound up having peanutbutter and crackers for breakfast. My back hurts less when I eat salty food because it makes me retain water(hence my strong feminine side) but it also shoots up my blood pressure and I live in terror of stroking out like my Mom. Sigh...at least I don't fall off bicycles or anything...Making turkey meatloaf/fish (not together-just a choice annie will eat w me but no one else likes fish)(convinced annie to start eating some fish when she turned out allergic to every grain known to man) and mac and cheese.

Stayed in bed till 10 am today-haven't done that for years and years. Last night took some pain, muscle relaxants, at same time and they zonked me. Coffee and yogurt.

I'm a gifted individual. Brilliant, perceptive, compassionate, inquisitive, (humble), I have tremendous gifts in all aspects of communication. Yet I stand in my own way, like a boulder before a child on his first hike, and tremble.

I must be very frustrating to love for many reasons!:) Think I'm getting better, though, at doing what I should instead of shooting myself in the foot for my own amusement. Helping T with job hunt is giving me enough focus to put more structure in my life, which helps with my diet lots. Last night I made pancakes for dinner-pretty much Annie's favorite and she's been having trouble with school. Bad case of spring-itis. Her 17 yr old boyfriend will get to visit this summer from his parents house in Virginia.

Being chatty because I have to make the daily connection that my food issues are very emotion laden and I can't separate them out.

Tonight I'm making faux lasagna with ziti noodles.

I had a nervous eating weekend with lots of comfort food. Yesterday was better, with yogurt breakfast, salad lunch, and quesadillas and beans for dinner. Wish I could live off nachos with sour cream!:)

Skipped breakfast-just had an apple and potato salad for lunch. Working as aide-de-camp to Tracy during job hunt. This morning she put me on probation because I didn't look for our stock of thank you cards yesterday-she's a stern boss but I like the benefit package!:)

strange to have Tracy home so much but is being good for my food choices. Like all alcoholics when I'm alone I'm with a bad companion. Coffee and yogurt. Tonight beans, cornbread, cheese quesadillas, and salad. Last night we had fish and mac and cheese.