Wrote all day-an essay about racism in Texas history. Very depressing topic-had too much veggie lasagna for dinner for comfort food.

Came on to leave a mea culpa and all I can say is-ditto! I don't know about how stressed you are but I bet lots. Me too. Need to work most on my response to stress.

Had half a fried hash brown for breakfast. Woke up feeling awful-well-motivated to eat well today. Had grilled turkey hot dogs for dinner last night with potato chips. So ironic that I love salty snacks and they screw me up so badly!:) Hash brown was hair of the dog...

Fasting today so far, but going to lunch w daughters-K off to church camp all next week.

Skipped breakfast-woke up feeling awful. Just had two turkey meatloaf sandwiches for lunch. Meant to have one. Feeling really tired and hard to cling to willpower.

Getting a new school routine down. Just kicked the ass of a comparative politics test so hard my toes tickled the professor's tonsils.:) Had a banana and a handful of grapes at 5am(admittedly I have big hands) and an egg and cheese biscuit from McD's on the way to the campus at 9am. Veggie chili for dinner. A neighbor gave us big bag of squash(in Texas you lock your car doors at stores or your neighbors will fill up the back seat with their extra squash) and I'm going to make lots this week.

I've been on the edge of rage for 2-3 days all the time. Not eating well so far today-two peanut butter sandwiches and a yogurt.

Ate pretty well over the weekend. Coffee and yogurt. Veggie chili tonight. Start summer classes tomorrow.

Had a "burger joint" chicken sandwich last night. T had hers smothered with mushrooms and swiss cheese and it looked delicious-but I got to feel somewhat virtuous by choosing my relatively spartan fare. Then I had some fried cheese-oh well...:) Dylan had a good 17th birthday.

Today coffee, bean burritos, and wimbledon tennis. Tonight roast dead bird flesh w potatoes and beans.

Ate well yesterday. Today Dylan's birthday, but will try to have only one piece of cake. Woke up late and still having coffee.

Having a quiet morning. Coffee, yogurt, and roast chicken for dinner. Will have salad for lunch and bought some mixed nuts if I want a snack. Trying to frame eating well as something I can do for myself instead of a restriction for me to rebel against. We shall see if the irrational passionate me can be corralled by my intellect and soothed by spiritual meditations...

The greatest achievement is selflessness.
The greatest worth is self-mastery.
The greatest quality is seeking to serve others.
The greatest precept is continual awareness.
The greatest medicine is the emptiness of everything.
The greatest action is not conforming with the worlds ways.
The greatest magic is transmuting the passions.
The greatest generosity is non-attachment.
The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind.
The greatest patience is humility.
The greatest effort is not concerned with results.
The greatest meditation is a mind that lets go.
The greatest wisdom is seeing through appearances.

Atisha (famous Buddhist dude from about 1000 yrs ago that shaped Tibetan traditions)(as far as is known he never had kids, so what did he know...):)