The last few days I've been living on nachos and diet coke. Tracy gone to Mother's bedside, kids out in the evening; left to my own devices I'm a mess. Tracy back now; having salad and roast chicken for dinner. Got an application for a job finished-feels most strange.

Connor's 20th birthday today so I'm not worrying about what I eat-still had a salad for lunch though. Cake tonight. Making him chicken enchiladas with sour cream sauce, rice and beans.

Got home much earlier today-errands were intense yesterday. Skipped breakfast, salad for lunch, and just had an apple. Dinner tonight will be Frito pie and salad.

This morning I had a yogurt; forgot to grab lunch box(toy story box-very cute) so had fish from ljs. Very greasy-icky. Tonight salad with turkey sausage simmered in bbq sauce and corn muffins if my back quits hurting and i get ambitious.

Yesterday I had an excellent salad for dinner but then had ice cream so didn't earn any healthy eating points for the day!:) Today I had a chicken taco at lunch and a spoon full of peanut butter after school. Omelets and fried potatoes with onion tonight-yummy.

Tonight I ate like a pig at a trough-truly, it was gluttony and bingeing-y and I'm a better person than that-stress is not being sufficiently relieved and I feel like I suck and always will. Going to bed early; need to feel less like crap tomorrow. Tomorrow will be better and so will I.

Had dinner w T at a Cracker Barrel-very folksy but too much salt. Fasted otherwise today. Get observed tomorrow by supervisor. Looking forward to the weekend.

Last night we had sandwiches and fried potatoes so I had a salad and soup. Monday we pizza. Tonight I made fish and mac and cheese for the monsters and i had a salad w chili and chips. Tracy's Mom is dying, so extra stress and drama. I wish I could help her more. I always feel half panicked lately and always behind-trying to make it to spring break without drowning. I'm having so much fun with the students and everything else is just panic-inducing. Everyday I focus on what I'm going to teach tomorrow and make sure I'm going to be able to get through my classes and every day the rest of my life falls to shit just a little more. I wish I could multi-task better; i wish Tracy's Mom could hang on a little longer. If wishes were fishes we'd all cast nets. I'm in more dire need of a blowjob than any white man in the history of the world...:)(watched a little of "Good Morning Vietnam" tonight...)