Ate healthy yesterday-yeah! Starting to get caught up and less panicky feeling. Had a leftovers night last night; not sure what I'm making tonight. Looking forward to soup weather!

Had nachos for lunch, veggie frito pie for dinner last night, planning baked ziti for dinner tonight. Eating pretty well but got pissed at Dylan this morning and had two helpings of frito pie right after. Gotta stop.

I could have done better with my weekend eating. I had been doing worse. Made mexican food for dinner last night and went overboard with chicken tacos. Skipped breakfast this morning. Having turkey sausage topped with veggis chili for lunch. Salad for dinner-kids pizza night.

Had a bowl of cornflakes for breakfast. Goal is to use the weekend to get my act together and aggressively manage my diabetes.

Got Annie back in school but had to pick her up today because she started blowing chunks all over the place. Really feel bad for her. Have been stressed and depressed and eating too much, and then not posting because that might interfere with my dealing with stress so badly:)

Life is a process and it's good to have room for improvement! Just decided that-and I didn't have my inner voice that whispers to me when I'm just talking shit because I'm glib and I can...:) I know my eating would be worse without this blog, so I'm not going to beat myself over the head for not being perfect about the way I use it, and I think my audience should do the same!

Last couple days have been really bad-like an alcoholic falling into a vat of wine and trying to drink his way out instead of swim. Can't get a handle on my stress enough to quit feeling panicked. T still getting laid off but we don't know when, her car broken and mine needs new transmission according to the subaru guy that tells us something new every time he has the damn thing. Luckily the warranty covering the cost but we still don't have a car whenever they need it just to not fix it yet. My back is hitting the nine on the ten point pain scale and I found myself thinking about how to sever my spinal nerve so it would stop-I think the walking, feeling, continence and sex life advantages of having even a damaged spinal cord slipped my mind for a while. Things will get better, I will be better.

This morning I ate peanut butter from a spoon and apples. Cheese and eggs. Yesterday I ate a horse, with picante sauce and lots of refritos...woke up feeling like shit.

Yesterday Annie had flu confirmed-felt bad because I had get kids flu shots on calendar for next week!:) She handled her job and babysitting commitments like such a pro-she has such wonderful people skills compared to my sons. My coping skills still need work, as I ate comfort yesterday. Rainy day not helping. Sticking to coffee only till about 3, and then will have a high protein snack. I seem to do much better when I plan ahead. Roast chicken w beans and greens tonight.

Lost track of time-very bad weekend. Annie sick, Tracy depressed. barely functional time. Predictably, ate too many sweets and made everything worse by being in a diabetic stupor part of the time. Cornflakes today. Pizza night for the monsters; will have a salad w chicken.