Yesterday was one long depression flashback. Spent half the day writing suicide notes in my head while knowing it wasn't real and trying to reboot my brain. Very icky! Felt better about 9pm but by then had eaten a lot of comfort carbs that threw my diabetes into overdrive-today will be about healthy choices and a visit to my psychiatrist-some people who have had long term double depression respond well to electro-shock...hmmm...might rather just die a pathetic death...:)(definitely just kidding but a "a beautiful mind" was disturbing to my not sane self! If I can disengage food from my emotions I will win both battles I think!

Coffee is all till my blood sugar drops lots.